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Great Quotes About Writing

Recently I’ve been coming across extreme insights into writing in the form of random quotations. I will collect them here.

 

This from the writer Oliver Sacks:

 

” Frequently, our only truth is narrative truth, the stories we tell each other, and ourselves.”

 

Form John Irving:

 

“If you don’t feel you are possibly on the edge of humiliating yourself, of losing control of the whole thing, then what you’re doing probably isn’t very vital. If you don’t feel that you are writing somewhat over your head, why do it? If you don’t have some doubt of your authority to tell this story, then you’re not trying to tell enough.”

 

From poet Muriel Rukeyser

The universe is made of stories, not atoms.

Why You Have to Write 1st Draft Holding Nose

The pain of writing for me is the horrifying sense that I am producing crap. The background chant in my brain as I work is, “yousuckyousuckyousuckyousuckyousuck ….” But somehow I force myself to keep going, because I know from experience that the ONLY way I have any hope of writing something of any quality at all is by puking out an awful first draft, then rewriting it over and over, slowly comprehending where the holes and errors are, and draft by draft filling, correcting, and only then, finally seeing some actual opportunities to do something good. Now, as a client and I are finishing the final drafts of her book project, she sent me the following quote, which has buoyed me amazingly.

 

  • “If there is aught of good in the style, it is the result of ceaseless toil in rewriting. Everything comes out wrong with me at first; but when once objectified I can torture and poke and scrape and pat it till it offends me no more.”
  • William James

How I Became An Editor

Jack Limpert, former long-time Washingtonian editor, asked me to write something about how I became an editor for his excellent blog, well worth exploring. Here’s my response:

 

I only ever wanted to write. First I wanted to write fiction, but I discovered I never actually WROTE fiction unless I had a hard deadline for a class. So I went in search of deadlines and joined the college newspaper, where I discovered that I actually preferred finding stories in real-life sets of facts to making stories up out of my head. I was lucky enough to get paid for that, and ten years later I was writing long-form enterprise stories for the Cincinnati Enquirer, which was a good gig, but I wanted to go to a bigger, more ambitious and accomplished paper.

I applied to the Miami Herald feature section, and was disappointed not to get the job. A few months later I got a call from Gene Weingarten, then the number two editor at the Herald’s magazine, Tropic. Weingarten said that the feature editor there had shown him the clips of all the applicants for the feature job and asked his opinion. He said he told them there was no contest: they should hire me. They had ignored his advice, but now he was going to be promoted to Tropic editor, and he needed a number two, and he wanted me to apply. I told him the only editing I had done had been in college, and he said he didn’t care. He said what he really needed in an editor was someone who could write a magazine story himself, who understood what narrative nonfiction required and could take manuscripts from good reporters who didn’t understand that and make them over into full-fledged magazine stories. He said that if I took the job, he would be satisfied only if every story I edited turned out as fully formed as if I had written it myself.

I had always admired Tropic, and Gene’s goal intrigued me. So with some regret at “giving up” writing, I took the job. Within a month I realized that not only was editing for a magazine in many ways as creatively challenging, and satisfying, as writing, it was going to improve my own writing in the bargain. Instead of writing a handful of major narrative projects a year, I was managing the creation of scores of them, from the conception to the reporting to the mapping out and final execution. I was, in effect, getting hundreds of reps for the key writing muscles, as well as benefiting from the more elevated perspective that is the inherent luxury of being an editor — intimate with the guts of the story, but at one remove, a general surveying the gory battle from a hilltop bunker, above the smoke and clamor and fog of war that engulfs the infantry.

In the end, I believe, that after editing for almost 30 years now, I am a better writer than I would have been if I had only been a writer. Also, I may have learned something about editing.

Trips

It’s been months since my last post, mostly because I’m working on another book, this one about the ever fascinating topic of psychedelic drugs. And speaking of unforgettable trips, a travel piece I wrote a year ago about spending Christmas in Spain just ran in the Post travel section. Since it had a seasonal theme, they had to hold it for 11 months. That set up an interesting scenario. When I read it online today, enough time had passed so I barely remembered writing it, which allowed me to read it as a reader, rather than an author. As I read, I wasn’t sure what was going to come next. I was capable of being surprised by a turn of phrase, to get an overall sense of personality that was myself, but not quite myself — like looking at an old photo in which your hairstyle was slightly different, your features just discernibly younger and the shirt you’re wearing is not one you ever remember having.

It’s the second travel piece I’ve written for the Post. The first — actually the second, but it ran first — was on a kayak trip to the Everglades. Both of them were a pleasure to work on, which is a rare thing for me to say about any piece of writing. I think it is because trips are always natural narratives with two destinations — one the literal, the other psychological. As you work out the writing, you discover the hidden meaning of the voyage, and the sometimes surprising psychic path you traveled to arrive there.

Fantasy League Journalism

Lately my story idea inspirations have been of the “you know what I’d really like to do . . . ” variety. A year or so ago I was in a Wegman’s basement wine superstore with absolutely no idea how to tell one of the three thousand bottles of wine from any other one and I thought, “You know what I’d really like to do? Bring a master sommelier with me and have, like, $300 to spend on her recommendations.”

More recently I was listening to the Nats on the radio thinking, “You know what I’d really like to do? Spend some time hanging with Charlie Slowes and Dave Jageler to see how they manage to do what they do.”

Both those lovely thoughts turned into magazine stories for the Post magazine. And they were very cool and fun to report. The part I forgot though, was that even dream assignments like the above still have to get written, and the writing, as always, was eye-gougingly painful to do, with long hours down in the funky hollows of the worst self doubt when I cursed myself for ever committing to the dang thing.

You know what I’d really like to do? Get to report on something fabulously cool and NOT have to ever write about it. But still get paid.

Hollywood Ate My Screenplay

My grandfather and grandmother in 1950 at Sloppy Joes in Havana.

Wrote a screenplay. Liked it. Hollywood yawned. Rather than cry in my beer, I am hereby self publishing, because I can. A link to the screenplay is below. Here’s the back story:

My grandfather, MacKinlay Kantor, wrote 50 books in his lifetime. For one of them, Andersonville, he won the 1955 Pulitzer Prize for literature. But that wasn’t the novel of his I liked best. My favorite was an earlier novel, his first big success, published inn 1934. Long Remember was a fictional account of civilians caught in the  battle of Gettysburg. Gettysburg, often called the high point of the Confederacy. (the war was all downhill after Maj. General George Pickett’s uphill charge to the town cemetery was repulsed by stalwart Union troops.) The battle was fought over three days, July 1 to July 3, 1863. Next July is it’s 150th anniversary. The action of the novel, which won high praise for its historical realism, actually begins in late spring when the protagonist returns from the Western territories to attend to affairs after his grandfather’s death. He falls in lust with his neighbor’s wife — a big city girl marooned in a small town while her unhappy husband is away at the war (a captain). The lust is reciprocated, they guiltily consummate the affair, then, like the judgment of a terrible God, the war breaks right on top of them.

The novel, in my view, has a few structural and stylistic problems, eminently fixable. So I set out to do that, by turning it into a screenplay, which by its nature requires rethinking a novel in any case. I was hoping that the country would be caught up in 150th anniversary fever, and that Hollywood would be swept along. No go. The screenplay went out and got a consistent response: Nobody wants to make any more Civil War movies. Especially since Redford shoved The Conspirator down everyone’s throat and the result was a communal gag. Even Cold Mountain, which as a novel sold approximately a gazillion copies and had big stars in it, was disappointing box office. So Long Remember, the Screenplay is going nowhere. But I had a great time writing it: Screenwriting is like a cross between literature and puzzle making. Much more fun than, say, writing a nonfiction book. I also thought, and still think, despite Hollywood’s thunderous indifference, that it would make a great movie. Judge for yourself. Read the screenplay here:

Long Remember

Ode to Harry

The Harry Crews I remember

Harry Crews died yesterday. He was 76, dissipated by a lifetime of hard living, too many drugs, too much alcohol and an uncounted number of fists to the face. I couldn’t recognize the man in the obituary picture, the man described as a little-known but larger-than-life cult novelist, a writer of “dark fiction” filled with Southern grotesques and wild violence. The Harry Crews I remember was fixed in a thin slice of spacetime, a stretch of six months or so in Gainesville, Florida 40 years ago. He was in his short-lived “speed freak phase.” He’d given up drinking, at least temporarily, but he was definitely on something that turned up the wattage. He was running a lot, zero body fat, a Mr. Clean gleam, both on his shaved skull and in his eye.

Somehow I managed to get into one of his University of Florida creative writing seminars as a sophomore undergraduate. I don’t remember if I had to show a writing sample, but I imagine I must have. Crews was a writing God in 1972 Gainesville. Little-known he may be in terms of a New York Times Arts section obit in 2012, but then and there he was the most famous man in town, a swashbuckling Hemingway figure who made flesh the cliche of living legend – at least to an 18-year-old with dreams of literary fame and fortune. I do remember a one-on-one interview in which he studied me the way a hawk must study a chipmunk. He accepted maybe a dozen students that semester, a three-hour marathon one night a week which was less of a class than a performance. I have no idea why I was among them, but I have been forever grateful for that fluke of luck.

Crews spoke in great roiling torrents, extolling us like a revivalist doing his unlevel best to save a particularly sorry bunch of sinners. His gospel was the nakedness of truth, the necessity for a writer to peel away all ego, to abandon caution and conceit, and care only for revealing his inner world in all it’s sick and twisted glory. Crews, who made it quite clear he had no use for convention in life or literature, was the embodiment of Bob Dylan’s creed, “to live outside the law, you must be honest.”

There were periods in Crews’s pedagogic career when he was not the most attentive teacher. He’d show up late and half-baked to stumble and mumble around. Or fully baked, not show up at all. But in the brief moment of time when  I sat at the old-fashioned wooden writing desks in an antiquated second floor classroom, a heavy scent of  jasmine drifting in the open windows, he was an exemplar. Sometimes he read something he’d been working on, raw passages only ripped from his typewriter hours earlier. It was thrilling, terrifying, and disconcertingly intimate. It could have been embarrassing, but he read it with such fierce energy and conviction we were all swept up and carried away in the flood of prose, each and every one of us forever embedded with the desire to write as if we were dancing around a ring,  trying to deliver a knockout punch.

That was the downside of his charisma. We weren’t so much students as disciples, and to this day, his manic rhythms throb in some recess of my brain whenever I sit at a keyboard.

Here’s the upside: One night he walked into class with an onionskin manuscript in his hands and announced that he was going to read a student piece. He set to it with the same drama and passion he’d delivered for his own work. His reading was so riveting, it wasn’t until several sentences in that I realized that he was reading my story, the story I’d suffered and strained over, and had grown to hate each and every word of.

I’m sure it wasn’t all that bad. It wasn’t all that good, either. But as Crews read it, standing and pacing before us, flailing his free arm and belting out my words as if they were fists of fury, I could see my classmates leaning forward in their seats, rapt. And for the first time, I truly believed I could become a writer.

 

A Net Net

Denis and Rafa at 2009 French Open

I wrote an article a couple months shy of three years ago about a couple of DC-area teenagers who were trying to make it on the junior tennis circuit, and had dreams of making it in the pros. In the article, titled Net Gain, I made it clear that even though they were among the top juniors in the world, their chances of actually succeeding as pros, defined roughly as a handful of years among the top-100 players in the world, were exceedingly small.

The other night, I had the thrill of watching one of the two, Denis Kudla, play Roger Federer in front of thousands packing a stadium in the second round of the prestigious Indian Wells CA tournament. Kudla, now 19, was facing off against possibly the greatest player in the game’s history at one of his hottest moments in years. Federer would go on to win the tournament, and Kudla had never been past the first round in a tournament of this magnitude, had never faced a top-10 player, and had never played before so many fans on international television. He looked appropriately nervous, like a man who suddenly was aware of every nerve signal and muscle twitch it took to simply stand up and walk to his end of the court, much less return a 130 mph snaking serve that dips on the line as if it had telemetry.

Yet, incredibly, despite a very tight-armed double-fault, Kudla held his first serve, and even aced Fed down the T.

He went on to lose of course, 6-4, 6-1, but not before breaking Federer once in the first set, and having a break chance in the second. His second-round finish was enough to move him up further in his steady climb through the rankings. He’s now at 175 in the world, and he’s in the top 10 of all American pros.

The other star of my article, a kid I watched grow up at my racket club in Fairfax VA, was Mitchell Frank. Frank parted ways with Kudla at the end of his junior career and, instead of trying to go pro, accepted a scholarship to the University of Virginia, where he instantly became the No 1 ranked college player in the country. It used to be fair to say that players who went the college route, and stayed there for the full four-years, rarely amounted to anything in the pros.

But a guy named John Isner, who went to the University of Georgia and graduated there, is now the No 10 player in the world. It was Isner who faced Federer in the finals of the Indian Wells tournament. He lost, too. But still.

Is Storytelling Unmanly?

Great blog in the Times today about Lincoln’s storytelling prowess:

“Count Adam Gurowski, a Polish exile who worked in the State Department, observed, ‘In the midst of the most stirring and exciting — nay, death-giving — news, Mr. Lincoln has always a story to tell.’ Ralph Waldo Emerson found it delightful:’When he has made his remark, he looks up at you with a great satisfaction, & shows all his white teeth, & laughs.’”

So charming, especially knowing the sanctimonious, brittle character of so many presidents to follow, who made a show of teeth mainly as a prelude to personal attack. Predictably, not everyone was charmed. One big-shot politician of the time summed up the general objection:

“He likes rather to talk and tell stories with all sorts of persons who come to him for all sorts of purposes than to give his mind to the noble and manly duties of his great post.”

The critic’s name was Richard Henry Dana. Know it? Thought not. He’s another grandee lost in the depths of history, where the sediment of ponderous rhetoric and polemicism falls and turns to muck. Lincoln understood as well as any of our great writers that story telling connected with human beings in a way abstract pronouncements, however rational and finely parsed, never can. Far from frivolous, stories are the core currency of consciousness, the only way the world makes any sense at all.

 

Welcome to another episode of “Bad Editing”

Sincerely, if you want to see a demonstration of the consequences of tone deaf editing than check out this link.  This is all due to my friend Rachel Manteuffel, who was walking home from work one day and happened to pass by the new MLK memorial on the National Mall. She noticed one of the quotes carved into the granite just didn’t seem right. She wrote an op-ed column about it, and today, the Secretary of the Interior announced that the quote would be changed. Here’s the context:

In a 1968 sermon at the Ebenezer Baptist Church King told a biblical story of James and John, who ask Jesus for the most prominent seats in heaven. He said that this was an example of the  ‘‘drum major instinct—a desire to be out front, a desire to lead the parade.’’  It was that desire, he warned, that could lead to ‘‘snobbish exclusivism’’ and from there to  ‘‘tragic race prejudice.’’

‘‘Do you know that a lot of the race problem grows out of the drum major instinct? A need that some people have to feel superior . . . ”

Imagining his own funeral, King said he didn’t want to be remembered for all the things that set him apart, like the Nobel Peace Prize he had won, or the accolades  of world leaders. He had no interest, he said, in being remembered as a drum major. Instead, King asked to be remembered as someone who ‘‘tried to give his life serving others’.’

He concluded: ‘Yes, if you want to say that I was a drum major, say that I was a drum major for justice. Say that I was a drum major for peace. I was a drum major for righteousness. And all of the other shallow things will not matter.’’

Someone charged with editing material for the memorial, which was only going to be CARVED IN STONE, decided that quote would be a great summation of his life. Only it was impossible to carve such a long quote in the granite. So here’s what some public servant came up with as a condensed version:

“I was a drum major for justice, peace and righteousness.”

Nice work!